Trying

So , you've finally gotten yourself up back from the ground. You finally start walking and you start dusting off the past of your back. But , how come when you get the chance to feel again , you suddenly just cant. As in no cappability to Feel again. Feel in any emotion. Love , Sadness , Anger , Hate and so forth.
But somehow , you're quite happy to not get those feelings anymore. I mean with love you wont suffer heartbreak anymore , with sadness you will ONLY enjoy happpiness , with Anger you can learn to control your self and so forth. And you start to say "Hey this is'nt so bad of a life ?

Right ?